Recently for New Years eve I choose to be alone and tucked up in bed and didn’t feel like I was missing out , many years ago I don’t think I could have done that because of that FOMO(fear of missing out). But no longer do I care if I am boring by staying in a Saturday night while everyone else is out on the town.
I don’t care about not having a spray tan or leaving the house without make up. Very different to my days back in the UK.
I don’t care if I have worn the same outfit several times before.
I don’t live and plan my life by the TV schedule and instead plan time for loved ones and catch ups.
I prefer being in nature, reading, going for walks, chilling on a beach.
I am totally comfortable with doing things alone. I enjoy going to the movies myself. I remember the first time I did it. I had just moved to Melbourne and it sounds daft but it always had this stigma attached to it like if you go alone you must be a loser with no friends. I even met a lady the other day at the markets who mentioned that she really wanted to see a movie that I raving about but had no one to go with at the time and missed out because the idea didn’t enter her head to go alone. I would totally recommend to go alone with a tub of popcorn or your favourite ice cream and get engrossed in the movie on the big screen and cry if you free like crying without a care in the world. It is liberating, It is you time, embrace it.
I have learnt the importance of self love. I listen to my body. I choose to be healthy. I exercise to feel good. I changed my eating habits and started eating healthy, turned vegan, cut down the junk food and stopped binge drinking. I eat well to nourish my body and to feel good.
I don’t care (as much) if people don’t like me. I am okay if I get negative comments and criticism and won’t beat myself up over it (within reason). I am stronger and try to stand up for myself more. The people that matter can make comments and give me advise that i will take on board but no longer do I care what strangers think of me.
I am me, I have great friends scattered who mean the world to me. But I am raw and honest with the people who know me best. I don’t see the point in fake conversations or inauthentic relationships.
I appreciate what I have.
I am most of all grateful. Grateful for my experiences, grateful for opportunities. Grateful for my network that keeps me strong.
I choose happiness.
I am on the path of self love and understand it is important to love yourself and love others from your saucer not your cup. xxx